Monday, May 19, 2014

And so it begins!

I started on my first round of hormones a few days ago. This first round begins with a hormone called estradiol, and as the name suggests, it is a form of estrogen. I am supposed to take it for about a month, then add in progesterone.

Progesterone causes the crazy to come out.

I haven't ever been on estradiol before, and so far it hasn't made me too crazy, for which I am grateful! The main side effects I have discovered are fatigue and headaches. I haven't ever really had a problem with headaches before other than the occasional "haven't had enough sleep"/ "too much sleep" variety. But since I started the regimen I have had an almost constant throbbing pain, and around the early afternoon I have a distinct "slump" in my energy levels.

I have taken progesterone before, and let me tell you: I become utterly insane.
Random crying, irritability, and the tendancy to be very emotional in general have my poor husband running for cover and throwing chocolate at the wife-beast on an hourly basis.

Once, while on progesterone at the beginning of last year, I spent the better part of four hours crying.  That's right. Four hours. I cried in the shower, on the couch, while getting ready for my night shift as a waitress (didn't help with the makeup application, that is for darn sure), and riding my bike to said job. I only barely got under control to serve tables. This is what hormones do to me, they make me a slobbering pile of girly emotions with a healthy dose of angry and bloaty. Lovely.

Luckily it's all going to be worth it, and I would gladly go through just about anything to have a child, but sometimes I wonder if Heavenly Father made me hormoneless so the world wouldn't have to deal with me on full girlzilla mode all the time! ;)

Everything is coming together, and we are on schedule to do the embryo transfer in August! The fourth week in August is the magic time when we will find out if it worked! I'll try to keep you all updated, thank you for all the support!

Love, Sam