Wrench

Have you ever noticed that just when you thought you had everything figured out, Heavenly Father decides to throw a wrench in your plans and you have to start all over again? This week I had a pretty big (albeit awesome) wrench thrown into my life.

You remember that date I told you about? Well. one date turned into two...then three...then four...and now I'm kinda in a relationship. And by kinda I mean definitely.

He is pretty much the best, and the fact that he puts up with me and my craziness and LIKES it is not only astonishing, but a completely new experience for me. I have to admit that it took a while for me to be okay with this new development, as I was still clinging to an old relationship pretty hard. But when I realized that I have never been treated as well or with as much respect ever in my life, I decided it would be okay to allow myself to let go of that old news and open myself up again.

I know most of you have probably gone through something similar, so you know how scary it feels to take a step into the dark and have the faith that everything will work out, but so far I am extremely glad that I did. Not only am I happier and less stressed than I have been in a while, but this new development feels so....right. I know I sound crazy (that's okay with me) but I feel like I have known him for a lot longer than a month. I have never felt so confident, so comfortable, or so open with any boy in my entire life.

Yeah, I know. As Bethany would say, "BARFO!!" Haha! But honestly, I am very excited to see where this wrench will take me.

The only major problem is that I have my final Temple recommend interview with my Stake President tomorrow, and now that I am in a relationship, I have NO idea what to do! I know Heavenly Father will help me to know which path to take, but it makes me nervous that basically as soon as I started down the road to the Temple, a fantastic boy shows up. What is the Lord trying to tell me here? Argh!

Can you tell I pretty much love my life? ;)

Anyway, I will let you all know what comes of this, so stay tuned. As always, I love you so very much, and I hope you know how very much more your Savior loves you!

<3 Sam

News

Well, it has been over a month since I last wrote, and a lot has happened!

• I went on a date (yes, this makes the list, since it is such a rare occurrence).

• I applied to UCCS, but haven't heard back.

• I bought a car!!! It's a 2003 Chevy Cavalier, and I love it! I named her Phoebe.

• I did not end up being the cook at the school I work for, so I am still in the classrooms. I work almost exclusively with the 2-2 1/2 year-old children, and it's fun!

• I applied for my substitute teacher license, but haven't paid for it yet (I'm broke, okay?).

I am excited that things are moving forward, and that everything I want to do is happening. Hopefully I will hear back from UCCS soon so I can apply for financial aid and get that going. I am feeling much more confident in myself and what I want for my life, and I have been much happier for it. I am just so grateful for the opportunities I have had in my life, and to discount all the things I have been able to do thus far would be very ungrateful of me. Anyway, that's the news for today! I will try to be more consistent for those three of you that read this blog! Haha! Love you all!