Saturday, October 29, 2011

Update

Well, I didn't get that job. So for now, I am just going to have to try harder to be better at my job. Also, I need to try harder not to be so whiny. I feel like all I do is whine! I need to stop. I have been incredibly blessed, and I have absolutely nothing to complain about. Update over! ;)

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Oh Dear. Life is at it again.

So I find myself constantly in transition lately. Every time I think I have things figured out and under control, in comes the curveball. Not that I have any complaints. I have had and will continue to have a blessed, happy, and joyful life. But happiness has never precluded trials. I was never promised an easy life, and I will continue to have hardship for the rest of my days. And for that I am grateful. If I had never had to suffer through trials in the past, I wouldn't be the smart, wonderful, capable person I am today, haha ;)

So, now an update. I am currently in the process of acquiring new employment. The woman I work for happens to be my very best friend's mother, and while I do like working for her, lately I have found that I am really not the right person for the job. It is not only causing me untold amounts of stress, but I feel that my relationship with her family is becoming strained. So, in an effort to salvage that relationship and to be happier and less stressed myself, I will be drastically cutting back the hours I work for this wonderful woman, and spending more time working another job which I have interviewed for, but have not necessarily been hired for yet. (Fingers crossed!)

So that's one thing.

Secondly, there is the boy thing. Which is frustrating, and hard, and I have spent entirely too much time talking about. I will spare you from hearing about it again.

Then there is the fact that I really, truly need a new car. But as much as I need one, I cannot afford to own one. Right now my parents have graciously allowed me to use our family's extra car, which happens to be a 1994 Ford Aerostar van. It is bright red, seats seven, has not heat or air conditioning, gets 10 miles to the gallon and eats premium gas like a champ. Also, the driver's side window doesn't roll down. Which makes ordering at a drive through, paying toll booths, and talking to people on the road very difficult.

That being said, it does run. It gets me from point A to point B. And if I end up not being able to pay rent, I could totally fit everything I own into the back of it, save my dresser. That would be a legit apartment.

Now that I have sufficiently related my sorrows, concerns, and worries, I will again go back to the fact that I am, and have always been, very blessed. I have an amazing family, awesome friends, and a loving Father in Heaven who will always supply everything I need in this life and the life to come. And for that knowledge, and the knowledge of my Savior, I will have joy for the rest of my life.

Love Love Me! ;)

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Not my favorite subject...

Can I just say that dating is much, much harder than I thought it would be? I mean, I knew how to NOT date, that was easy. Not dating was so much simpler than dating, even if it was sad and depressing.

And not dating didn't make me cry.

Or have stress dreams.

It's driving me crazy, and I feel like I should be happier, not more anxious.

Basically, I hate it at the moment, and wish I could crawl into a hole and hibernate for a few months.

That is all.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Conference

Oh Conference. How I love thee! I look forward to your semi-annualness like a kid looks forward to Christmas. Because just like Christmas, I get so many gifts from you!

This year I watched all four sessions by myself, and I was amazed by how well I payed attention! And throughout the two-day wonderfulness, I noticed a few themes.

1. The importance of scripture reading, especially the Book of Mormon.
2. Missionary work.
3. The importance of being morally strong in the world today.

There were a few other talks that were wonderful and had very poignant messages such as the importance of prayer, and how to raise faithful daughters.

I am so grateful for Conference, and for the opportunity to watch it every April and October. I love listening to Prophets, Seers, and Revelators, and I know that the words they say are coming from the Lord to help us to navigate this mortal life as best we can.

I am also grateful for the chance I have to be a member of a wonderful ward, and to have so many friends that are wonderful examples of love and charity. I am very blessed to have met such incredible people in my life! I love you guys! :)