Woof. Making cakes is a time consuming activity! As I write this, I am waiting for a 12-inch cake to cool (which takes a while), and sitting at the kitchen table in my baking attire (pajamas covered in powdered sugar). As much as I stress out over doing cakes like this, I always have a sense of accomplishment when I finish and the Bride is happy with the outcome. Hopefully this bride will be happy! If she isn't...I just hope I didn't ruin her wedding...
Anyway.
So lately I have been thinking about life in general and where I want my life to go. Being single, I have no attachments or responsibilities here. I could go and do anything I want. The problem is...I don't want anything that I can get for myself. All I want is to have a family, and that is highly dependent on a second party being willing. Which at this point, I have all but given up on.
I know, I'm dramatic.
But seriously.
So instead of lamenting my lot in life (the lot being eternal singlehood) I have decided that I am going to choose to make the best of my situation. So. Here is the plan.
1. Get a great job that has benefits and pays well enough.
2. Choose places that I want to travel to/friends I would like to visit.
3. Work and save up to go to those places after saving up for a new car.
4. Choose some classes I would like to take from the local community college (like metal working, Confectionary, etc.)
5. Take said classes when I have time.
Good plan, right?
I think so too.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
100
This is my 100th post! Crazy! I never thought I'd stick with it this far, but I am glad I have. It has been such a great journal for me, as I have a hard time sitting down and writing it all out by hand.
So, I have had a great revelation today.
I am HAPPY.
Have I been struggling lately? You betcha.
But I am so happy. I have so many incredible things to be happy about, and they always seem to overwhelm the sad or hard things I have to deal with. So I decided to make a short list of some of the things that make me happy, and that put a smile on my face every moment of every day if I just remember them!
1. The gospel. I am so eternally grateful for this in m life! It is EVERYTHING to me. And every time I start to grumble, I remember that He paid for my sins. He loves me. I am never alone, and He will make my burdens light.
2. My family. They are just the best, even if they sometimes make me crazy ;)
3. Good music. It never fails to lift me up and make my heart lighter. I love music!
4. Scriptures. I have recently grown to love my daily scripture study and really look forward to reading every day.
5. Prayer. I cannot express my gratitude for this. Prayer can work miracles.
6. Fall. It's so wonderful to see the change in the air, the pumpkins, the leaves, and everything else that comes with the changing season.
7. Friends. They just make me so happy! I would name you all, but it might make other people jealous ;)
8. The General Authorities. They rock.
9. Enchiladas. No really. They make me happy.
10. Random dancing in the car. It just brings me so much joy to see the looks on other driver's faces.
11. Singing. I love to sing! It is so great to be able to express myself through music.
12. Dogs. They are just so awesome. They are so full of joy, how can you not be happy around them?
13. My KitchenAid. It is so wonderful!
14. Sleep. I love to sleep! I love getting eight full hours a night, and so does my body! Haha.
15. The Temple. There are so many reasons why the Temple makes me happy, but mainly it is because I can feel the presence of my Heavenly Father there, and it is such a comfort to me. I love being there!
16. Letters. It makes me so happy to get letters in the mail!
17. Children. They are just so great! So sweet and innocent and loving!
18. Driving. It is just nice. I like it.
19. Serving others. It never fails to make me so happy! I love doing things for other people! If you need anything, let me know! It makes me so happy!
20. Love. Love makes me happy. No matter who it is from, it makes me happy! I love love! Haha.
I could probably find 100 things that make me happy, but I think I'll stop there. Rest assured, that I will continue to find things that make me happy, and so should you! I defy you to not be happy after making your own list!
So, I have had a great revelation today.
I am HAPPY.
Have I been struggling lately? You betcha.
But I am so happy. I have so many incredible things to be happy about, and they always seem to overwhelm the sad or hard things I have to deal with. So I decided to make a short list of some of the things that make me happy, and that put a smile on my face every moment of every day if I just remember them!
1. The gospel. I am so eternally grateful for this in m life! It is EVERYTHING to me. And every time I start to grumble, I remember that He paid for my sins. He loves me. I am never alone, and He will make my burdens light.
2. My family. They are just the best, even if they sometimes make me crazy ;)
3. Good music. It never fails to lift me up and make my heart lighter. I love music!
4. Scriptures. I have recently grown to love my daily scripture study and really look forward to reading every day.
5. Prayer. I cannot express my gratitude for this. Prayer can work miracles.
6. Fall. It's so wonderful to see the change in the air, the pumpkins, the leaves, and everything else that comes with the changing season.
7. Friends. They just make me so happy! I would name you all, but it might make other people jealous ;)
8. The General Authorities. They rock.
9. Enchiladas. No really. They make me happy.
10. Random dancing in the car. It just brings me so much joy to see the looks on other driver's faces.
11. Singing. I love to sing! It is so great to be able to express myself through music.
12. Dogs. They are just so awesome. They are so full of joy, how can you not be happy around them?
13. My KitchenAid. It is so wonderful!
14. Sleep. I love to sleep! I love getting eight full hours a night, and so does my body! Haha.
15. The Temple. There are so many reasons why the Temple makes me happy, but mainly it is because I can feel the presence of my Heavenly Father there, and it is such a comfort to me. I love being there!
16. Letters. It makes me so happy to get letters in the mail!
17. Children. They are just so great! So sweet and innocent and loving!
18. Driving. It is just nice. I like it.
19. Serving others. It never fails to make me so happy! I love doing things for other people! If you need anything, let me know! It makes me so happy!
20. Love. Love makes me happy. No matter who it is from, it makes me happy! I love love! Haha.
I could probably find 100 things that make me happy, but I think I'll stop there. Rest assured, that I will continue to find things that make me happy, and so should you! I defy you to not be happy after making your own list!
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Life
...is interesting.
So the past few weeks have been a bit rough for me. I have been somewhere in the middle of not-quite-adult and full-on-adult, and it has become painfully clear to me that living life is HARD. Not only am I in a transitional period when it comes to my temporal life, but I have been going through a tough transition in my spiritual life as well.
Just to recap last Friday:
My parents told me I was no longer welcome in their home, and that I needed to find another situation as soon as possible. Not because I have done anything wrong, but because they believe that I am hindering my own personal growth by remaining at home.
My Boss decided it was a great time to give me a lecture about where my life is going, and made me cry for the second time that day. For those of you that know me, I am not the crying type. It exhausts me.
Also, my phone ended up getting exposed to water in my purse, and died. Icing on the cake.
After this epic fail of a day, I was just so tired! The rest of the week followed, and along with looking for a second job, a new place to live, and a car within my price range for when my poor old van finally dies, I was told that I was being removed from the Family phone plan, and that I needed to get my own phone.
Which I did.
And then today I was feeling like I should call a girl in my ward to see if she still needed a roommate, and she said she did, and I could move in...tomorrow.
So it's been a crazy week. Add on top of that the fact that my "special friend" has recently been completely ignoring me and when we do converse, seems completely disinterested, and you have the cherry on top of my life feeling like it's completely out of control.
Please tell me I am not the only one who has felt this way!! I know I'm not, but it is just so...different for me. I have never felt so helpless in my own life. I do feel better now that I have a solid plan and a place to live, but it has been a very long journey from just last Friday.
I know it probably sounds like I am lamenting my lot in life, but I'm not. When I decided to follow Christ and come to earth, I knew it was going to be hard. I knew it was going to hurt, and that I was going to cry sometimes, and that I would have to deal with heartbreak and turmoil. I am so blessed to have the opportunity to move in with other LDS young adults, I am blessed to have been raised to know the Gospel and to know that I am a child of God, and I am so very blessed to know that I am loved by so many people (even if it's not always the people I'd like!). I know that I am a Daughter of God, and that I have infinite worth, and that I am smart, talented, and worth far more than I can comprehend. I am so grateful to have a loving family, a terrific Ward, a fun calling, and a job. I have some of the most incredible friends, and I am so happy that I have them in my life to lift me up and to tell me it's okay and that I am loved. I am so very blessed!
I know that I have a way back to my Father in Heaven, and I know that Jesus Christ died for me. I know Joseph Smith was a Prophet and that he restored the only true and living Church on the earth today. I hope that all of you who read this know how much I love and appreciate you, and how much more your Heavenly Father loves you!
Never forget that He is always there for you!
So the past few weeks have been a bit rough for me. I have been somewhere in the middle of not-quite-adult and full-on-adult, and it has become painfully clear to me that living life is HARD. Not only am I in a transitional period when it comes to my temporal life, but I have been going through a tough transition in my spiritual life as well.
Just to recap last Friday:
My parents told me I was no longer welcome in their home, and that I needed to find another situation as soon as possible. Not because I have done anything wrong, but because they believe that I am hindering my own personal growth by remaining at home.
My Boss decided it was a great time to give me a lecture about where my life is going, and made me cry for the second time that day. For those of you that know me, I am not the crying type. It exhausts me.
Also, my phone ended up getting exposed to water in my purse, and died. Icing on the cake.
After this epic fail of a day, I was just so tired! The rest of the week followed, and along with looking for a second job, a new place to live, and a car within my price range for when my poor old van finally dies, I was told that I was being removed from the Family phone plan, and that I needed to get my own phone.
Which I did.
And then today I was feeling like I should call a girl in my ward to see if she still needed a roommate, and she said she did, and I could move in...tomorrow.
So it's been a crazy week. Add on top of that the fact that my "special friend" has recently been completely ignoring me and when we do converse, seems completely disinterested, and you have the cherry on top of my life feeling like it's completely out of control.
Please tell me I am not the only one who has felt this way!! I know I'm not, but it is just so...different for me. I have never felt so helpless in my own life. I do feel better now that I have a solid plan and a place to live, but it has been a very long journey from just last Friday.
I know it probably sounds like I am lamenting my lot in life, but I'm not. When I decided to follow Christ and come to earth, I knew it was going to be hard. I knew it was going to hurt, and that I was going to cry sometimes, and that I would have to deal with heartbreak and turmoil. I am so blessed to have the opportunity to move in with other LDS young adults, I am blessed to have been raised to know the Gospel and to know that I am a child of God, and I am so very blessed to know that I am loved by so many people (even if it's not always the people I'd like!). I know that I am a Daughter of God, and that I have infinite worth, and that I am smart, talented, and worth far more than I can comprehend. I am so grateful to have a loving family, a terrific Ward, a fun calling, and a job. I have some of the most incredible friends, and I am so happy that I have them in my life to lift me up and to tell me it's okay and that I am loved. I am so very blessed!
I know that I have a way back to my Father in Heaven, and I know that Jesus Christ died for me. I know Joseph Smith was a Prophet and that he restored the only true and living Church on the earth today. I hope that all of you who read this know how much I love and appreciate you, and how much more your Heavenly Father loves you!
Never forget that He is always there for you!
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Day 30
Where I see myself in 10 years:
I see myself married, settled, and with one or two kids. That is all I really want. I know, the total cliche of a Mormon girl, but really, I feel like that is what I was cut out to do. All my talents are geared for being a homemaker, and I would love to just have a family.
That's the end of the challenge! I did it! I have to admit, I was a little bit of a slacker some days, but I am so glad I did it!
Thanks to everyone who read, I hope to update more often now that I am used to doing it.
I see myself married, settled, and with one or two kids. That is all I really want. I know, the total cliche of a Mormon girl, but really, I feel like that is what I was cut out to do. All my talents are geared for being a homemaker, and I would love to just have a family.
That's the end of the challenge! I did it! I have to admit, I was a little bit of a slacker some days, but I am so glad I did it!
Thanks to everyone who read, I hope to update more often now that I am used to doing it.
Day 29
A person I love:
Wow. Um, how am I supposed to pick just one? There are so many amazing people that I love, and all of them are just so special to me! Maybe I'll talk about someone I haven't mentioned yet in this challenge...Bethany.
Bethany and I met my second semester at BYU-I. We lived in he same complex and were in the same German class, so she decided we should be friends. She just walked right up to me, said "I think we're in the same class and the same ward." And that was it. From that day on, we were besties. We pranked, cooked, and just hung out and before long I couldn't imagine my life without her. She is one of the kindest, most faithful, and just all-around amazing women I have ever had the privilege of calling my friend. She is currently serving a mission in Independence, Missouri, but she is almost done! She comes home THIS MONTH!! I am so excited to have her closer and I hope I get to visit her soon, because her rib-crushing hugs are one of my great joys in life!
Wow. Um, how am I supposed to pick just one? There are so many amazing people that I love, and all of them are just so special to me! Maybe I'll talk about someone I haven't mentioned yet in this challenge...Bethany.
Bethany and I met my second semester at BYU-I. We lived in he same complex and were in the same German class, so she decided we should be friends. She just walked right up to me, said "I think we're in the same class and the same ward." And that was it. From that day on, we were besties. We pranked, cooked, and just hung out and before long I couldn't imagine my life without her. She is one of the kindest, most faithful, and just all-around amazing women I have ever had the privilege of calling my friend. She is currently serving a mission in Independence, Missouri, but she is almost done! She comes home THIS MONTH!! I am so excited to have her closer and I hope I get to visit her soon, because her rib-crushing hugs are one of my great joys in life!
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